” God is at work in the worst of times. When you think he is farthest from you, or has even turned against you, the truth is that he is laying foundation stones of greater happiness in your life.” – John Piper
How do you move on when you have lost everything you have worked for, everything you have ever loved, how do you give it all up and still see the hand of God in your life? Being very vulnerable with you guys, this has been something I have been struggling with for the last year and a half. My husband and I were never supposed to leave Brazil, we thought we would be there for the rest of our lives. God had different plans of bringing us back to the states, and then when we got to the states we found out that we will never be able to have children of our own. That is a lot of information to digest in one year. You go from thinking you are going to be starting a family down in Brazil and do God’s work there for your life, to having to come home, and find out that the family you dreamed up your whole life is going to look very different. I struggled for quite a while with being frustrated at not understanding God’s plan for us,
I still don’t understand God’s plan for us yet, but I believe that He is merciful and he is laying foundation stones for greater happiness in our lives.
Two characters I see in the Bible, that had to deal with incredibly dark times in their lives is Naomi, from the book of Ruth, and Joseph. They both handle their dark situations a little different, but two things they both never falter on is 1.) God Exists, 2.) God is Sovereign, Naomi, was in a foreign country because of famine in her home town, while in this foreign country her husband, and two sons were killed. She came back home to Judah and said the ” The Almighty has dealt bitterly with me” she dwelt in her bitterness and her misery so much that she couldn’t see God’s merciful hand on her life. God was the one that ended the famine so that she could come back to her homeland, God gave her Ruth to come back with her, and through Ruth, Naomi would gain a man-child, and that man-child would marry Ruth and give Naomi a grandson who would end up being the grandfather of the greatest king in Israel’s history, and be the foreshadow of the King of Kings Jesus Christ. Naomi never faltered on God’s existence, or his sovereignty but she couldn’t see his hand working in her life. Have you ever been there?
The story of Joseph is also very sad, he was also in a foreign country, sold in to slavery, accused by an adulteress, thrown in prison, but there is something different about Joseph’ story. Through all of this he never lost sight of the merciful hand of God, to use all of what he was going through for his good. Genesis 50:20 “As for you, you meant it for evil against me [Joseph says to his brothers]; but God meant it for good.” Joseph ended up being second in command to Pharaoh, and saving all of Egypt, and other nations from famine. Joseph never faltered on God’s existence, or his sovereignty, and he also never lost sight of God’s merciful hand on his life, this is such a hard thing to do, but so beautiful when we do.
Here we see two stories of absolute devastation, but two different results of how they handled their hard times. Naomi was caught up in her grief, and bitterness, while Joseph stayed focused on God and his merciful hand in his life knowing that he would use this for his Glory and the good of Joseph. You know what I love about both of these stories though? God never left either of them, and he worked beautifully in both of their lives.
God isn’t done with my story of coming back to the states, or finding out I will never have kids of my own. He is going to use this for his glory and my good. Are you caught up in your grief and bitterness and only focusing on that, or are you looking to God in your situation and keeping your eyes open to see what wonderful thing he is going to do in your life?
God give me eyes to see your merciful hand on my life even in the darkest of corners where there seems to be absolutely no light at all.